Barack Obama said a group of voters was bitter, so what? Please take your manufactured outrage somewhere else media. His intent, even if not obvious, in his speech, was contextualized by his speech on race a few weeks ago. (He acknowledged the anger of some white voters, and that they had a right to be upset, the ire was misplace: it should be aimed at corps outsourcing, not some stupid Affirmative Action myth) Oh that's right, he threw his grandmother under a bus for admitting she had prejudices just like everyone else.
People. Stop watching Fox. Put Down the CNN. You can only watch MSNBC if Olbermann is on. Go to youtube and watch remarks for yourself; in fact, when it comes to news, just watch videos of the actual events, don't let some twit force feed you dumb ass narratives.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Accidental Headbutt
Ow. Seriously. Ow.
We did this gauntlet drill in bjj last night. One man in the center, six outside. The center man would go a minute with each person (6 min total). The outsiders would try to pass his guard and the center man was looking for a sweep. I was first in the center. Didn't pull a single sweep off (but I'm not sure if anyone actually got a sweep), and I didn't get passed all that often. At some point I was grappling with Sifu, and damn if I didn't eat a big ol' skull under my chin. IT hurt like hell, didn't sound too pleasant either, but for once I had my mouth guard in when hit, so I didn't lose any teeth. A valuable lesson was learned: I don't have a glass jaw. That's a good thing to know before stepping into a cage.
Today my neck is sore, really really sore. Having never taken a shot under the chin before, I can't say with certainty that it was---oh fuck it, there is no way it wasn't caused by the headbutt. My brains nearly popped out my skull. Always wear your mouthguard kids.
We did this gauntlet drill in bjj last night. One man in the center, six outside. The center man would go a minute with each person (6 min total). The outsiders would try to pass his guard and the center man was looking for a sweep. I was first in the center. Didn't pull a single sweep off (but I'm not sure if anyone actually got a sweep), and I didn't get passed all that often. At some point I was grappling with Sifu, and damn if I didn't eat a big ol' skull under my chin. IT hurt like hell, didn't sound too pleasant either, but for once I had my mouth guard in when hit, so I didn't lose any teeth. A valuable lesson was learned: I don't have a glass jaw. That's a good thing to know before stepping into a cage.
Today my neck is sore, really really sore. Having never taken a shot under the chin before, I can't say with certainty that it was---oh fuck it, there is no way it wasn't caused by the headbutt. My brains nearly popped out my skull. Always wear your mouthguard kids.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Motivation
For the last few weeks I've been lacking motivation for grappling. I've skipped more classes than I should have. I have a difficult time keeping a positive mindset. I'm dwelling on my deficiencies, and I try and try not to; but my god, there are days where it seems like I'm finding new weaknesses all the time, and not just that it seems like stuff I work on doesn't improve! This would be the basis for a great satire, a very cruel satire. I've been working on my fitness, but last wednesday, before I broke my toe, I really felt exhausted by a series of 3 minute stand/grapple drills. My heart was beating out of my chest. Why? I thought my cardio was better than that, not to mention my strength. Some of it is a matter of weight, but geez I'm always weaker guy!
It's hard to stay positive when you can't identify some sort of baseline positive! So I guess this was a venting session where I conclude by saying I have to focus on the little victories like doing a sweep while rolling (real) or hitting a major leg sweep on a much larger opponent (also real). Hell, the amount of energy it took for that major sweep surprised me. Any other minor victories of note? Um...well, I guess not breaking my toe is a major victory, heh. Anything else? My shrimp is improving...I have ACTUALLY submitted someone. I made it through a back escape drill with College Wrestler without getting tapped. It's a tall mountain.
It's hard to stay positive when you can't identify some sort of baseline positive! So I guess this was a venting session where I conclude by saying I have to focus on the little victories like doing a sweep while rolling (real) or hitting a major leg sweep on a much larger opponent (also real). Hell, the amount of energy it took for that major sweep surprised me. Any other minor victories of note? Um...well, I guess not breaking my toe is a major victory, heh. Anything else? My shrimp is improving...I have ACTUALLY submitted someone. I made it through a back escape drill with College Wrestler without getting tapped. It's a tall mountain.
Girlfriend comeback
Although we had fight over the weekend, Girlfriend is coming up my way. We've been debating going to the beach or going to a bread and breakfast. Hopefully, that will be the toughest decision I have to make this week.
The Toe Comeback
A week later my toe still looks like crap, and its still sensitive, but the swelling subsided and movement has (mostly returned). Doing any kind of agility work is still uncomfortable. I'm still going to BJJ tonight, but I'll have to take it easy if we do take down drills (Suddenly the purple belt can't get enough of 'em). I'll be wearing shoes for whatever that's worth.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Toe Update
Am able to partially bend my little toe, and I'm not limping as much. The chances of a mere jam seem to be going up.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Broken Toe (?)
As I told my girlfriend, getting injured is really frustrating. I feel guilty for leaving practice. As if doing so calls my discipline and devotion into question, but that's silly. Is partially because I was receiving my usual asswhippin'? (To be fair I did a couple things right, I scored a take down via sweep ((major leg sweep--Oni gushi??)) I shrimped properly and although I got in serious do do in the last 3 minute roll* no one submitted me))
What I need to work on, in respect to gui, is not getting married to any one grip. You can't collar choke someone if you don't let go of a pistol grip, and I need to figure out which sub to go for in relation to particular guard passes.
But man was I overpowered, it's really difficult for to tell if I am developing grapple strength because everyone else always seems much much stronger than me (even the one guy who is smaller than me, but granted he is unusually strong for his size, to the point I don't think the larger guys realize how strong he is).
These of course are my usual concerns.
If the toe is merely jammed I should be fine within a couple of days. If it is broken, a nurse estimated approximately 6 to 8 weeks. I don't know what I'd do with myself. The idea of sitting out practice that long scares me. It makes me feel weak; moreso, it makes me feel impotent. I KNOW I need to rest the foot, but I have a hard time convincing myself to actually take that advice. I've always been obssessive about exercise, but I think since the rape--that's what it was not a robbery not an assault it was a rape damnit--the idea of helplessness has become particularly terrifying. Isn't it funny? In BJJ, I am rarely if ever in control--maybe that's why I got frustrated so offten--but I keep coming back to it, while the idea of being unable to go to BJJ nullifies any control what so ever...well it's not just BJJ it's the threat of not being able to do ANYTHING: crossfit, jkd,bjj, hell I can't even do a body flow or yoga class because I need that damn toe for balance!
Tomorrow I will go to my morning workout at the dojo. I am creative. Sifu knowledge of exercise is deep. There are plenty of BJJ drills I can do that don't require me to put weight on the foot. I will get through this. I've made it through worse, much much worse. BUT I HAVE TO STAY OFF THE FOOT TODAY
**Wednesday now has a begginner BJJ gui class conducted by our no longer MIA purple belt.
What I need to work on, in respect to gui, is not getting married to any one grip. You can't collar choke someone if you don't let go of a pistol grip, and I need to figure out which sub to go for in relation to particular guard passes.
But man was I overpowered, it's really difficult for to tell if I am developing grapple strength because everyone else always seems much much stronger than me (even the one guy who is smaller than me, but granted he is unusually strong for his size, to the point I don't think the larger guys realize how strong he is).
These of course are my usual concerns.
If the toe is merely jammed I should be fine within a couple of days. If it is broken, a nurse estimated approximately 6 to 8 weeks. I don't know what I'd do with myself. The idea of sitting out practice that long scares me. It makes me feel weak; moreso, it makes me feel impotent. I KNOW I need to rest the foot, but I have a hard time convincing myself to actually take that advice. I've always been obssessive about exercise, but I think since the rape--that's what it was not a robbery not an assault it was a rape damnit--the idea of helplessness has become particularly terrifying. Isn't it funny? In BJJ, I am rarely if ever in control--maybe that's why I got frustrated so offten--but I keep coming back to it, while the idea of being unable to go to BJJ nullifies any control what so ever...well it's not just BJJ it's the threat of not being able to do ANYTHING: crossfit, jkd,bjj, hell I can't even do a body flow or yoga class because I need that damn toe for balance!
Tomorrow I will go to my morning workout at the dojo. I am creative. Sifu knowledge of exercise is deep. There are plenty of BJJ drills I can do that don't require me to put weight on the foot. I will get through this. I've made it through worse, much much worse. BUT I HAVE TO STAY OFF THE FOOT TODAY
**Wednesday now has a begginner BJJ gui class conducted by our no longer MIA purple belt.
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