Belated Birthday Note

I had a birthday part a few weeks ago. It was intended as a surprise birthday party. Now as a party it was a success, but as a SURPRISE party it was underwhelming. Why do I say this? BECAUSE NO ONE YELLED SURPRISE!!!! and a couple of the guests were late too, car trouble.

I was greeted at the door, walked into a room, saw a friend I didn't expect to see,--she gave me a birthday card with special mods (she wrote over it)-- saw a happy birthday sign in the room I didn't expect to see and then my girlfriend brought out an ice cream cake. Cake was taken back to the freezer and it was back to business as usual.

That balloon though...its still in my room over a month later and it hasn't come down from the ceiling......"Oh No the BIG --30--three oh!"

Oscars

Been watching the Oscars halfheartedly. The most interesting moments are the mistakes--Did you notice the magic censor fairy totally dropped the ball when Steve Correll presented? Do you think the right wing poo poos will shit a brick tomorrow morning even though a meteor clearly hasn't wiped out the midwest?

Reluctant for Obama

I was rooting for Edwards to win, so while I've observed the primaries intensely, I've done it dispassionately. I'll tell you what though, I'd much rather Obama win than Hilary. I view her as a calculating opportunistic politician, granted in politics you need those characteristics to some degree, but not only does she have an overabundance of those qualities, as of late she's demonstrated herself to be a piss poor cold calculating opportunistic politician. Forget about the Iraq War vote and the fact that her Iran votes have demonstrated a total lack of...er, I believe the word is "learning" she is trying to run a 10 state strategy in the newly emerging era of the 50 state strategy. Its allowed Obama to stay a step ahead of her. And don't get me started on her increasingly negative attacks. If the reports of her cobbling together a swift-boat style 527 are true, then she doesn't derserve to be the nominee. She would rather smash the democratic party and ruin the left's chances at the 2008 elections than--as they say in pro-wrestling--do business the right way.

That's all for now, I've got to get ready for practice.

The Brainfart contiunes

I had a topic, but thought it'd be better to start a new post and pffffffff gone. I don't remember what I was gonna say.

Ahhh, now I remember. Despite the ever frustrating white belt stuff I complain about, yesterday my judo instructor noticed a marked improvement in--ah shit I forgot the Japanese term--well, anyway he said my basic throw form has improved. I like judo, it seems to go well with a lot of styles. I need to start campaigning for a full time judo class--it only meets officially for an hour on Monday, then a BJJ blue belt reviews what we did on wed (or not we might do BJJ groundwork). I like the pedagogical tendency for high rep activity in judo. It helps me tremendously, and fosters my PATHETIC grip strength. I think, especially if we can get a full2.5 hr judo class, that gi throws will become a major strength for me (will not transfer to no-gi throws?), and the additional roll time couldn't hurt either. I'd like to do a judo competition, I think I could wreak some havoc.

The Soreness

I am quite sore today. Mostly in my legs, but in the upper core region too. I did a crossfit style circuit yesterday morning at the dojo--yes, I spend even more time there now, but I've cut back on my gym workouts. I've been trying to reorganize and reprioritize how I do condtioning. The periodic weight training stuff + cardio just wasn't doing it. I'd feel tired and wornout during classes. I've traded that in for soreness, but I'm trying to develop fitness over a wider spectrum, so I've managed to work yoga style gymnastics back into my routine, primarily as active rest. What I need to do now is worm in one running session a week and rotational work for my shoulders and I should be fine--I think.

But this was a digression. I intended to say something totally different after mentioning my soreness, and I forgot what it was. Was I going to bitch about doing air squats in JKD? Try to convince myself to only take one hour of JKD tonight? Eesh, I can't friggin remember.

Since I have a little time...

Things are very bad between me and the girlfriend. She has talked about breaking up. I'm not sure what to do or how to help. The best I've been able to muster is that she needs to see a shrink and that I'll even do couples counseling if she thinks it will help. She tried to get pissy with me at that suggestion, "I asked about that years ago and you didn't wanna do it!" "Of course I didn't wanna do it, there was no need, nor were we struggling with a violent sexual trauma shared by the both of us" I didn't say that exactly but it put the kibosh on the accusation before things got ugly.

Ugly at this point is relative. Nothing I say appeases her. Nothing I do seems to assuage her fears. There is a great big list of symptoms that victims of sexual assault may suffer. With her it is mood swings. She had them before the trauma, but now they are exponentially worse. I don't know if I am emotionally equipped to weather them.

Long Time No See

I'm happy to report to my army of none, that I'm not dead, allow me to bring you up to speed.

1. I'm studying for the GRE
2. I'm applying to grad programs in Creative Writing
3. My dog has had several haircuts
4. I'm afraid I'm going to lose my girlfriend.
5. I'm trying to drastically overhaul the way I do conditioning work
6. Food Poisoning whupped my ass
7. The Writer's Strike is over (hooray!)

The following have not changed:
1. I'm STILL a white belt in all disciplines
2. I still attend martial arts classes with near obsessive devotion
3. I'm still haunted by the trauma
4. George W. Bush is still a petulant mongoloid fuck
5. No one reads this blog but me


Will try to get back in the once a day habit, and maybe even expand on some of the changes in the former list...but don't count on it.